October 15 - Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness Day

6 Years ago - Sept 2, 2010 our little girl Ava Kallie was born, spent 6 hours with us, & was taken to heaven as a sweet little angel. 

She will always be part of our family. The memories, the love, the pain are real and are there everyday. My boys know they have a sister that they'll all meet one day. I have gone through so many different emotions and thoughts and grief in the past 6 years. Initially I chose to keep going, enjoy life, and be happy for Justin who was 3 at the time.

So many people commented that I was such a strong person - on the outside yes and that was a choice I made. I wanted to show Justin at the time that we all at some point have to deal with loss, with tragedy, with difficult things in life. It's how we deal with them, learn from them, and choose to push through them & keep going that matters and really defines us. I chose to rise from the pain, treasure the moments I had and make new memories.

I'm posting this for those that have suffered a loss and specifically suffered the loss a a child. For those that have grown emotionally and spiritually BUT especially for those that cant find their voice, those who are suffering alone, those that don't know how they're going to move on. I am breaking the silence for those that can't...your sweet angel is out there and will never be forgotten.